"Life is the sum of all your choices" - Albert Camus
For better or for worse, your life is what you have made it. Many of us take a long time to learn that lesson, and some of us never do. We spend our time justifying the decisions we have made with statements like "I had to do it because....." or "X really wanted me to be there while...." We justify to others but more often than not we justify to ourselves to excuse the things we have done that we know were not the best.
Imagine how nice it would be to sleep peacefully at night without living through that days trauma in your dreams?
One of the hardest things to do is to look inside yourself and be guided by your own inner wisdom. It doesn't mean that you will always make the right decision, but you will make the one that you can live with. You won't have to be replaying it in your mind with the 'if only I had done/said/been.." preface.
Camus is right. Where we are now is where we have chosen to be, consciously or not.
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